Confessions.............

[Debbie Maddox]

Had a truely rotten day yesterday. We did not have anything green or raw in the house. And boy did my body know it. It wanted wanted wanted.... all I had to give was pancakes... ugh.... I soaked lentiles and ate those all day.... with a bit of olive oil and garlic and pepper. but those darn pancakes called and called and darn it ... I broke down and listened.... yup, one of the worse things I could have ... processed flour and sugary sweet syrup. And I gorged....

But the good news is .... I am paying for it today.. swollen, groggy, feel like crap.... sniffles.... OMG! To the Gods of Raw.... Ok OK I promise not to eat this again.... just make me feel better.... Shows what laziness does... Just hated to go to the grocery store.... but so as to not repeat.... I am going with $12. evil thoughts .... now what can I get raw for 12.00??

Hope everything is on sale.

I had to confess.... not beating myself up for this back stepping... just confessing.... on to another day.... Heavy sigh....

[Deborah]

You are not alone. I just posted "Possessed" on my blog. I didn't detail what I ate because my husband reads it! But, it started with an egg and cheese omelet and ended with....oh gosh...chicken nuggets!!!! Seriously, WHO EATS THOSE???? What was I thinking? The PMS fiends invaded my body. Oh well. Tomorrow IS another day!

[T]

i confess too ... day 45 sunday i ate half a chicken breast and 14 hashbrown rounds -- the bf bought a new indoor grill machine -- i only ate half the breast and the hashbrowns he put on my plate -- processed hashbrowns that really didnt taste like anything -- before raw i would have devoured the whole thing -- but just jumped back on the raw wagon and have been raw again -- i am finding it easier to go back to raw after a slip and being grateful i am raw now since i feel so much better --

[kidkaras]

ooh debbie, i ran out of fruit other day and went the whole day without it..by the next morning i was craving watermelon so i drove to the store and bought watermelon, lots of apples, oranges, mangos..later on i ran around to a different store and got mesmerized in the produce aisle and bought a lot more stuff..now i have no room in the fridge because i have so much fruit! lol its like my body was saying you will never deprive me again lol

[Deborah]

Clearly you did better than T and me! LOL

kidkaras said:

ooh debbie, i ran out of fruit other day and went the whole day without it..by the next morning i was craving watermelon so i drove to the store and bought watermelon, lots of apples, oranges, mangos..later on i ran around to a different store and got mesmerized in the produce aisle and bought a lot more stuff..now i have no room in the fridge because i have so much fruit! lol its like my body was saying you will never deprive me again lol

[Laurie]

Hi Debbie,

I know how you feel (we've all been there). Luckily, every day is a new day. :-)

You can get a lot of bananas for $12 (63 at Trader Joe's!)!

[Anastazia]

I guess this is something almost everyone does, at some point...& learns the lesson...

...I'm totally broke right now, we went to the foodbank today, but Hannah was dawdling so we got there as they were locking up, & they didn't let us in...& we really, really needed to go today, we have hardly anything left, raw or otherwise...I had 12$ left, so got Hannah enough stuff for a few days, & I'll be fasting...

...I decided that, even though it's hard for me to fast now cuz of blood sugar issues, (never used to be) it's way easier than dealing with how I feel after eating dead, processed, junk...I just can't put it in my body anymore...

...i think, after eating processed cooked stuff, I always naturally gravitate to a few days of really light eating, no treats, not too many fats, LOTSA water!

Forgive yourself & just keep goin', soon, you'll be able to make a healthier choice when faced with similar circumstances!

~Anastazia~

[KirbyCuke]

big hugs.... confession is good for the soul,lol
Im glad you arent beating yourself up over this,its not worth it.
tomorrow will be better...and hopefully you will feel better as well.
when you hit the grocery store today...12 dollars of anything healthy and raw will be better for you than $12 of the other junk,so focus on the fresh produce and you will do fine.
again big hugs to you!!!!!

[chasmyn]

I'll confess. I've been eating little bits of cooked food every day for awhile now. I don;t know how long and I don't even know why I'm doing it. It's like I'll tell myself "today I will be 100% raw," and then my mind immediately wants me to eat something cooked. Its not even that I WANT it...well, some of it I want. But it's more like a compulsion that I have no control over.

I keep saying to myself I need to go on a seven day 100% raw cleanse to get this stuff out of my body, and then I cannot even make it ONE day.

I feel like something is wrong with me. I don't feel good when I eat those things - they aren't serving my body at all. So why am I doing it? It seems to be difficult to stop something when you don't even know what is causing it in the first place.

[Anastazia]

Chasmyn...
...you always have such good insight into what's really goin' on in you...even when you don't know the answers, you're asking the right questions....{...I love that about you...}

...so why do we do what we don't want to do? I have my (christian) veiws on that, (I see everything through the eyes of my faith, I can't help it...) but I believe that the bottom line is that until we come to a place of total surrender (to this or anything!) there will always remain a struggle...

...so maybe sit down quietly, alone, with a piece of paper, & ask yourself
what's keeping you from surrendering to this?
& from trusting the process?
What keeps you from giving this to yourself,
knowing what you know about how good it is for you?
What goes through your mind,
what weighs you down in your heart
when you give in to those thoughts
that push you towards yeilding
to your old way of eating?

What do you want more...
...the comfort of the familiar,
or total freedom to do what you WANT to do with your body?
{To feed it according to wisdom & understanding, & no longer according to emotions & habits?}

When the answers begin to come,
you'll be able to take the next step in the process of changing things that are, yes, so hard to change...

Nothing is wrong with you...you're HUMAN...& totally normal...
...when I'm doing something I don't understand, but I truly want to stop, I surrender it into God's hands, ask Him to show me whatever I need to see, & to set me free....
(even if I never fully understand, this side of Heaven, why I do what I do...)

...& He never fails to answer me....
...He wants us free...

You make me think of one of my favorite verses....
"His mercies are new every morning"....
...as ours are meant to be....
{...to others, as well as ourselves....}

So just keep pressing on, one day at a time...
...failure isn't not doing it perfectly, it's giving up, & no longer trying...

...you've given us plenty of evidence to know that you DO have it in you to do this!
So don't strive for perfection, k?
Just do the best you can, & over time, the changes will come, & everything will all fall into place!

& one day you'll wake up & BE a RAW FOODIST to the exact degree that you want to be, no more conflict, no more struggling, no more telling yourself to do one thing, & doing another!
I'll celebrate with you when that day comes!!!
(& I don't think it's that far away!!!)

Hugs,
~Anastazia~

[Denise Duffield-Thomas]

Don't worry - we still love you!

No hail mary's needed!

Yours in sniffles (too much bingeing last week on cooked foods!)
Den

[rebeccaj]

it's important to remember that the cooked stuff is totally addictive - it's a drug, and we're addicted, just as surely as if it were heroin. it's siren song is the melody of addiction, and breaking free of its clutches ain't easy. i've been able to easily maintain 100% raw so far this challenge, but OI!!! it took me 5 1/2 years of trying. i'm incredibly thankful that so far i've been able to resist all temptation, because that simply hasn't been the case before. i know that i'm always ONE DECISION away from a full-blown binge, i have no laurels to rest on, and i've still got a long way to go before the temptations go away. but the decision not to have that one bite that leads to 1000 others is the only decision that saves me. love and be very gentle with yourself - it's the only way to get over a slip without making it worse.

[Debbie Maddox]

Thanks to all for your support and love. it is nice to know I am not alone here. I did not get a whole bunch for my $12.00 I wanted a watermelon really bad and that stupid thing was $9.00.. I mean geesh! , a couple of bananas bread and butter... yes I know those two things were not raw but I do have other people in the house who are SAD eaters.... Although they are better then before.