Day 84- DRUG FREE!

[Bunny Berry]

Thank you so much for all of your love, light, encouragement, happiness, prayers, reiki, etc over the weekend. I really needed it. I have been battling some demons that I wish I had never messed with, and now it's time to get them out of my life for good.

I have made a major life decision. One that I can only make for myself, and one that I am not in any way suggesting for you. This is a decision I had to make for myself, by myself, and to myself. I have decided to try to go 100% prescription drug free.

I am a drug addict. I have been relying on anti-depressants since my son was born back in 2004 (which I think that I legitimately needed), but that has led not only to anti-depressants, but to other drugs to mask the symptoms of the anti-depressants. I have taken every sleeping pill on the market, and am currently taking the generic version of Klonopin for anxiety and sleep. My doctor prescribes me 60 MG of Cymbalta (30 count), and then gives me 2 MG of Klonopin (45 count).

And if we're going to go ahead and be perfectly honest here, sometimes I take more Klonopin than I should and get my family doctor to give the occasional sleeping pill or anxiety med. Oh yeah, I'm hitting up two doctors and two pharmacies some months when my insomnia is bad enough.

Wanna know why I'm always bloated? Drugs. Want to know why I can't get rid of the weight? Drugs.

PHARMACEUTICAL DRUGS.

I may risk friendships here, but it's true. In fact, today, I think I already have lost a friend. Sure that won't be the last. This weekend, I stayed in bed and wept over this. And then I got up, and cut all my antidepressants into weanable portions, and recapsuled them. God told me to use exercise as my anti-depressant. He told me to use love as my anti-depressant. It's time for me to start using exercise as my anti-depressant. It's time for me to start using love as my anti-depressant. Laughter as medicine. Whatever it takes, I'm going to try it the drug free way.

As I sat there thinking about my life, I was also thinking about you. Your health, and how we've been teaching moderation. C'mon you guys, it's time to start getting serious about our health. I started working on the next 100 Day Challenge. And it's not going to look like the first. There is going to be *gasp* exercise involved. We're going to set goals, and we're going to ACHIEVE THEM. We're going to SEE RESULTS!

The next 100 Days of RawFu are going to take a new turn. And we're all going to be happier for it.

Here's to a DRUG FREE LIFE. Thanks for giving me the courage to do it!

[mango]

just wanted to say love u drug free total behind u i total am not on any drugs but my mother who on about 9 right now i do not want to end up like her so let rock it u are amaiong

[Littlewolf]

LOVE to you...I know a few others who this happened to re after just having a baby and the Drs not following up and weaning the person off the drugs..its a duty that they are supposed to perform . These drugs are only supposed to be taken for a set period i.e 6 months and then your to slowly come off them with support and some therapy etc...

Thinking of you as I can relate to the difficulties..athough never beem on the prescription drugs, I used meditation to combat things mostly and it worked for me :)..we all need to find what works, its different for everyone.

[Jo Sewell]

You've so got to give yourself this chance and to try your best - you have sounded so down recently that I hope this gives you the energy to succeed with everything that life throws at you - once you are emotionally strong nothing can stop you
You CAN so do this x

[Debbie]

bun, here's to a fresh start. We all have your back.. you can totally do it and rawk the house... per usual!
kisses
deb

[Terry Aley]

You are not alone. Many people ARE addicted to all kinds of drugs, we just don't always put them in the same category as crystal meth. I take a couple Diphenhydramine tablets every night to fall asleep. (Available at every grocery store, Target, Walmart, RiteAid, etc.) Then I drink caffeine in the morning to wake myself up. Both are perfectly legal "drugs." I'm not sure the original reasons I had for insomnia still exist, I just keep doing it. There's never a good night to go cold turkey, because I know I'll be up all night without my "hit." I preach to everyone to eat healthy living raw foods, but I'm no angel either! Maybe I'll join in and see if I can wean myself off my chemical dependencies.

[OceanGoddess]

Hey Bunny. I'm not happy or unhappy about your drug-free news. I just want WHATEVER will make you happiest and healthiest and most stable emotionally. :) So if that's drug-free, then YAY! If it's not, then YAY!

Much love and many hugs to you!!

xo,
Ocean

[Dianne]

You can do this Bunny .You know you can.If crying and other things happen just let it happen .Just stay focused~I am drug free and and the worse I ever did was smoke cigarettes from age 14-21 .And that was maybe 5 a day. I never smoked when pregnant though.So put ur whole heart into this and take the straight and narrow path to freedom.And I'm 50 remember ;-)

[smallframe]

Good for you Bunny. I admire your strength, honesty and courage.

Perhaps you might consider putting together a mission statement for this site.

[Apple]

Good for you Bunny. God Bless and good luck.

[Kristin]

Good for you & good luck!!

Have you designed a plan aside from the weaning? Get a good back up plan in place.

For insomnia, learn about light therapy and the circadian rhythm (together). I used this and 1.5 mg of melatonin (from the HFS & no more than 1.5mg, split it if necessary) to do this and it worked! (I only had to use the melatonin at first.)

Wishing you the very best on your journey. You can do it!

Kristin

[jane]

Hi Sweetie.
Wow you rock. A great resource when weaning of is a guy called Jim Harper from theroadback.org. Gives some good nutritional pointers to doctors and users. Can get helpful hints even without following his protocol.
Love you, love you, love you

[Helen]

Bunny,

Much love and support to you. I have never been addicted to prescription drugs - in fact when my doctors have tried to prescribe medications for me I have rejected them, except in the case antibiotics for infection. The last time I took any prescription drug was almost five years ago. I took exactly 2 of these stupid pills and then stopped because the doctor wasn't making any sense to me. She couldn't explain what was wrong with me or what the prescription was supposed to do - so that was that for me!!! And although I have never been addicted to prescription or over the counter drugs I can understand addiction because I am totally seriously addicted to food. I will be praying for you and I know you can do this. Each person has to follow his or her own path and you have to do what is best for you - no matter what anyone else thinks! And as far as losing friendships - HA - your "friends" will understand why you need to do this for yourself even if they don't agree with it and they should support you in this difficult time.