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Life has been nuts (as I'm sure it has been for everyone!)...

My mother has been visiting for the last week.. she just left an hour ago.. I have my apartment back! I love her dearly, but we have a challenging relationship. This time, our visit was mostly strained by ME! I was very on edge the whole time.. and took things SOOO personally. She can be very passive aggressive, but I can be just as bad when it comes to taking things personally. I think she has worked on her issues, but I reacted to… Continue

Wow.. today has been crazy! The weather here is horrible and I had a dinner party to cook for. Originally, I was supposed to go there around 3pm today and get everything cooked and set up, but we had to change the schedule around and I drove there this morning (it's an hour away) at 5am! Everything worked out and my client was very happy that I was flexible.. but man.. I am tired! I was up very late last night too prepping and all that, so I got very little sleep.

I'm so glad to be home.. safe… Continue

I am feeling inspired today. Eating more raw really helps.. and especially avoiding wheat. It is starting to snow and I'm warm and cozy in my apartment.. (I've taken to wearing a winter jacket inside)..

I am catering/personal cheffing (since I cook at their home) a dinner party Sunday and another one Tuesday. Vegetarian food.. but that's OK. I'd rather do vegan and raw.. but vegetarian is better than meat and better than no work at all!

I've been prepping as much as I can today for those parti… Continue

Oh boy.. life has been nuts in the past week or so. I am eating more raw, but still binging on wheat. I'm choosing to focus on the raw I'm doing at this moment or I'll go nuts.

I have gained 7 lbs in the past month. I need to keep myself accountable. I think I'm getting to the point where I am ready for a big change.. I hope so.

I lost power with the ice storm and then my X lost power too... This weekend was spent cleaning up all the mess. My X finally got power back late Sun night...

On the… Continue

and I am in deep... Obviously since I am very overweight I have an issue with food. My highest weight was around 310 lbs several years ago. I have lost around 50-60 (depending on the day and how much I've been in my 'addiction') and kept it off for 2 years.. but I have 110 lbs that I desperately need to "release". I love the term releasing instead of losing. Must remind myself of that.

Since I lost my job my addiction has returned full force. I feel out of control. I am trying so hard to at lea… Continue