SO I'm making all these breakthroughs lately . . . not necessarily breaking new ground, just re-remembering what I keep forgetting mostly.

I started to write about this on my blog but . . . .

Why am I so mean to myself, so mean with myself?

Why is it that in my own mind, it is SELFISH and WRONG to spend money on myself for such frivolous things as clothes, and good food?? when I can make do perfectly fine with whatever is cheapest on the Goodwill discard rack and what's on sale at the local g… Continue

ONE

Every time I clean,
I rearrange the furniture.

Even though I have a VERY bad back,
and it sometimes means days, weeks, or even months
of excruciating pain!

Sometimes (often?) I go so far as to move furniture from room to room.

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TWO

Sometimes, when I am so stressed out about finances that I feel like I'm about to suffocate . . . .

I go out and buy something frivolous. Just because.

Or go out to eat at a nice restaurant .

Or give someone else who… Continue

So I just did something that has really NEEDED doing for a few years now: I just gave notice at my job.

Granted, I gave a six-week notice, since I've nothing else lined up at this point and since my employer will need to hire and train someone to replace me.

But it's out there now.

It's off my shoulders, off my mind, off my chest. And I was honest about how depressing the work / work environment is for me, and honest about what a crappy job I feel I've been doing due to the sheer boredom my j… Continue