After a recent struggle facing food addiction, binge eating, and difficulty facing cravings for unhealthy foods I have decided that it's time to get back to basics. I cannot, at this moment, commit to 100% raw. But I can commit to 100% whole food vegan with as much raw food as possible. I like "as much as possible" as a commitment because it will always keep me striving to eat more raw but if I only manage 50% raw I won't be down on myself for not reaching a higher goal. I need a balance right n…
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Added by Nicole on October 10, 2009 at 9:50am —
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The last couple days have been really stressful and as a result I fell off the wagon HARD. coffee...pasta...pie...ice cream...junk, junk, junk!
Ugh...I feel absolutely horrible. Both physically and emotionally because I can't help but feel the guilt of destroying all I've been working for.
I will be home in NH in 2 weeks and I am feeling embarrassed by how I look and feel. I feel like this "moving south experiment" has been a failure and people will see that.
I want to turn things around and…
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Added by Nicole on October 8, 2009 at 10:29am —
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I haven't blogged in quite a while so I thought I'd stop in and just write to say how things are going.
I actually haven't been on the computer much. I've had a weird combination of being out of the house and being more social and getting more exercise and sitting on the couch watching movies more. I just haven't been in the mood to be on the computer.
My eating has been good. Not 100% raw but very close and I'm eating pretty simply these days. A grapefruit for breakfast, a big salad for lunch…
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Added by Nicole on September 28, 2009 at 8:32pm —
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So I found some raw cheese at my local Fresh Market and decided to give it a try. It was fantastically delicious!! But it triggered uncontrollable food urges and I ended up eating pasta with jarred marinara sauce. 30 days 100% raw and then I ruin it! I felt rather disappointed in myself but then decided the best course of action is to avoid dairy, raw or otherwise, until I can get all my cravings out of the way. If I can eat raw cheese as a logical and healthful addition to my diet and not just…
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Added by Nicole on September 14, 2009 at 3:55pm —
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Seriously...I CANNOT get cheese out of my head. I'm gonna spend some time doing some cheese research tonight I think and post a bit of info about the unhealthy and addictive properties of cheese in an attempt to convince myself to stop craving it. It makes me feel like I'm split personality or something!! I'm arguing with myself in my head and it's getting ridiculous. But I AM going to win this one so the cheese monkey better watch her back!
Today on the ride home I was thinking that I could jus…
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Added by Nicole on September 9, 2009 at 8:27pm —
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It's only been 2 days but calorie counting seems to be helping a lot. I guess the numbers on the scale over the next few days will be the real indication of whether it's working.
I made a fantastic dessert today: cherry chocolate chip ice cream. Check out
my blog for the recipe.
I also got on my wii fit for the first time in 85 days. Damn! I didn't realize it had been that long. I didn't do a body test as I had just eaten and didn't want to see the…
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Added by Nicole on September 8, 2009 at 10:33pm —
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So my weight is back up again...I'm around 139 at the moment. I think I've been eating too much or too many high calorie foods. I think I'm going to try calorie counting for a bit to see if that helps. I have Lose It! on my iPhone which is a calorie counting and exercise recording program that tells you how much you can eat to lose the weight you want to lose in a given period of time. I said I want to lose 2lbs per week and it said that I can eat about 1300 calories per day with my current exer…
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Added by Nicole on September 7, 2009 at 9:50am —
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Running is like mediation for me. Though I've made it one of my goals to meditate 3 times a week I have yet to actually sit down and meditate. Which I really should do because I know it would help me a lot in figuring out what I want for myself at this point in my life. I'm currently just sort of drifting because I can't decide what I want my focus to be.
Running is like a form of meditation for me though. My head clears and I barely even think about the running let alone anything else. It's gr…
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Added by Nicole on September 6, 2009 at 8:23am —
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I had a pretty rough day yesterday. I had the day off from work and not enough stuff planned to keep me busy so I got homesick. Now that my roommate has moved out I'm pretty lonely down here and it's easy to get caught up in that. My budget is tight so I can't really afford to go out and do things and there really aren't many free options for entertainment around (even hiking costs money!!).
I spent over an hour on the phone with my mom which was really nice but I still couldn't pull myself out…
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Added by Nicole on September 5, 2009 at 8:25am —
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I did yoga today!! For the first time in about a week and a half. My goal is 3 times a week. Obviously I wasn't doing so well with that. But yesterday's post reminded me that I do have goals for this challenge and I can't give up on them this early on. So I got out my yoga mat and got down to business! And I feel great...not exactly shocking news. Feeling great is an affirmation that I'm on the right path!
I put way too much dressing on my salad this evening so I ended up eating about double the…
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Added by Nicole on September 2, 2009 at 11:28pm —
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The scale went down again...YAY! Down a little, up a little, down a little more. It's a slow way to lose weight but I guess I can't complain because it's going down...however slowly.
I ran 2.5 miles today with a pace of 7:55 per mile. Oh my gosh that is just so exciting to me!!! That being said I need to remember to measure my success not just by the number on the scale. I've got lots to celebrate already. I'm eating healthier than I have in months, my athletic ability is quickly improving, and…
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Added by Nicole on September 1, 2009 at 9:16pm —
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The scale is really starting to frustrate me. So I've decided to step things up a notch. On day 30 (my day 30...which is slightly after the challenge day 30) I will be committing to at least 14 days of 100% raw phase 1 low glycemic. In preparation for that I have decided to give up all sweeteners starting today. That includes agave, maple syrup, and honey. That pretty much means that I can't get any more ready-made raw treats like Earth Cafe cheesecake. It's yummy but it's just not serving my go…
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Added by Nicole on August 31, 2009 at 8:30am —
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My weight has pretty much stayed the same now for about 5 days. Which is really a drag. I want to be skinny right now darn it!! I have been trying to reduce the amount of heavy foods that I eat but my calorie intake fluctuates dramatically from day to day. Today I ate 4 bananas and 2 avocados. Not exactly a light day!
I've started my official training for the 10k today. This week is pretty easy as far as mileage goes but I'll be stepping it up pretty quickly and consistently from here on out so…
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Added by Nicole on August 29, 2009 at 10:46pm —
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My weekend is Wednesday and Thursday this week. So far it's been a nice and relaxing weekend with not a whole lot going on.
I got my Spirooli in the mail Tuesday so yesterday morning after my run I decided to walk to the grocery store and pick up some zucchini to make pasta. At the grocery store they had bags of baby greens marked off to $1.50 because they were getting old. I got 8 bags. They are usually about $3 so that was an awesome deal. Most of the bags are baby spinach but a few are mixed…
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Added by Nicole on August 27, 2009 at 10:00am —
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One of my goals for this challenge is to always have a positive attitude at work no matter what gets thrown at me. I work in a retail environment so I interact with a lot of different people. Some are pleasant and some are not so pleasant. This morning when I got to work things were going well. Apparently there have been quite a few nice comments about me to managers lately which makes me happy. Our computer system has been ridiculously slow lately so no matter what I was doing it was taking 3x…
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Added by Nicole on August 25, 2009 at 8:14pm —
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Most people cringe at Mondays. I felt pretty awesome all day! Everyone at work was half asleep this morning, even around 11am. Clearly coffee isn't giving these people the pep they need! I had the most fantastic clementine, greens, and berries smoothie this morning. It was kind of like "POW! It's morning let's dance!!"
I ran 3 miles with a 8:15 mile average pace. FANTASTIC! OMG I am SO looking forward to some races this fall.
Currently getting my ingredients ready for a carrot pasta with cream…
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Added by Nicole on August 24, 2009 at 8:39pm —
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As I write this I am just getting home from work and made myself a soup that may just enter the league of my favorite soups. I love raw soups as it is...I could live off them for every meal. This evening's soup is a red bell pepper soup I threw together. 2 red bell peppers, 1 small tomato, half an avocado, some dried Italian seasoning and a pinch of salt. It's absolutely wonderful!
I also have some bananas in the freezer for a bit of raw chocolate ice cream later. Though this soup may satiate my…
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Added by Nicole on August 23, 2009 at 9:17pm —
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Living by myself and 11,00 miles from my family and friends is really lonely. Since my roommate left I have had the time and the space and the freedom to focus on myself and my physical, spiritual, and mental health. It's only been 8 days so I'm still in that adjustment period where I haven't made any new friends and I really miss my friends and family back north. It's a balance though. For me I've realized that I'm at that stage in raw food and taking care of my own personal needs that I can ei…
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Added by Nicole on August 22, 2009 at 9:02pm —
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Woohoo! I finally got a day off from work and WOW was it needed. It was nice to finally be able to have a whole day to myself and doing things that I want to do. So what did I do?
Well, I woke up and ran the same time as usual. Can't really sleep in and expect to run without dying of heat stroke so I got up at 7am to do my time.
Then I did laundry which was both a good and bad idea. I HATE waiting for laundry to finish washing and drying when I have a million other things I want to accomplish!
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Added by Nicole on August 21, 2009 at 9:24pm —
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Today has been a pretty good day so far. I haven't eaten very much and have had around 70 or more ounces of water. I've been REALLY thirsty today. I guess it's because it's hot and muggy outside. Not really sure...but I'm not complaining.
I took a Candidase this morning and then two just a little while ago. I don't know that I necessarily have a Candida problem but I'm going to assume that I do...at the very least on a minor scale...since I was eating pretty horribly. I'm hoping taking these en…
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Added by Nicole on August 20, 2009 at 9:33pm —
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