100 Day Raw Food Challenge

The issues I've been having

I guess the thing with raw food is the calling has to be right. You may feel so strongly called to it, but yet your timing has to be smooth in order to successfully move into it right. This is my issue. I feel so called to it, I know my body loves raw food, I don't even crave half of the stuff I used to eat! The timing is off however. Training and transitioning into raw foods is a bad idea I feel like. I feel contradictory but its the honest truth, so don't try transitioning into raw foods while training, you'll find out why. My detox with in the first couple days became unbearable with the amount of labor intensive training, paid job, and life situation I'm in right now. So being sick isn't an option at this point, and with waitressing, standing for 11 hours at a time while trying to keep my brain completely clear in my dual job situation, I've been presented with my own impatience.
So I step back, and realize that the calling my body continues to give me is intense. Giving into that desire when the time isn't right will only lead me to the opposite of where I want to go, being imbalanced and unhealthy. So when when when? I want to answer the question but my life says "no not quite yet Hannah". Its not an a do or don't, I can still go forth with my 75-80% raw vegan diet just not all the way right now. I guess the timing is more based on when I have a whole couple months where I am in a stable place and have the time to get sick.

Lets allow our expectations of ourselves go beyond an identity that is a real version of our inadequacies and an unrealistic version of our true self. I have a dream of how I want to feel, and I've reminded myself of how I have felt, the reality is in reality, neither of the two are present statements, they both are past and future references. I cannot change either just now, this moment is now.

I step back and feel every cell
"what do you need my love"?
I listen and I hear patience
I need to be loved and to love
Its the nourishment the food brings
As the heart brings the body its solidity
I am solid when I listen
I am balanced when I hear
I am healthy when I know my needs
I am healthy when I love and accept

All aspects of Myself.

cheers!